relief

april 7, 2011

the day before april 4 was actually a lot harder than the day itself - why is that?  all these expectations and thinking about the big day was really overwhelming.  when the day actually came, the first thing i woke up to was a text from tricia letting me know that i did it.  4 am had already passed and that meant i had made it through the year.  i actually felt a huge sigh of relief.  if i made it through that, i am set!

there were lots of great moments, but the best part for me was going back to rosedale hospice.  i felt this immense sense of peace when i walked in and it was so nice that everyone remembered us.  we brought them some colorful tulip plants to brighten up the space and were greeted by many hugs.  talyn ran right down to the library and grabbed our familiar old retro game of "guess who" and we played a couple of rounds in the sun room.

talyn's bday is coming up and so we're again doing an echoage party (www.echoage.com).  i highly recommend it.  everyone just donates money, half goes to one gift for the birthday kid and the other half to a charity of their choice.  the kid gets to choose what they want and the guests don't have to shop and wrap a gift - heaven!

he was explaining to tricia tonight that he chose the WWF so that he could help animals.  then talyn was asking us each about the charities we do work for.  his idea was to start a charity where the money would go to help dying people so they wouldn't die so quickly.  kids speak from the heart don't they?

the biggest emotion i feel after this week is relief.  the first year was a big test for me.  everyone says you can do it and you sure hope you can, but deep down you are unsure.  everything in your world is new and you are alone.

we can't control everything the future holds for us but we can control how we move forwards.  you will be surprised at what you can get through!

ciao,
tasha