Wednesday

like a dream

april 27, 2011

Clearly the biggest update to report is Coachella.  It is really hard to explain what it was like other than - AMAZING.  Imagine really hot weather (if you're in Calgary that's a stretch lately), trying at any point to decide between 2-3 of your favorite bands, a chill vibe, celebs everywhere, need I say more?  The only thing that could make it better for next year (cause that's definitely happening) is having more people we know there.  So people, next April, pencil it in now! 

Had a fab easter weekend with jill and her crew.  Things are never boring when you add 3 more kids to the mix.  She even had them working the corner....well with a kool aid stand.  A neighbour we just met even went home and made them a professional sign because he was worried the home made one wasn't working as well as it should be. They made over $30!  That's some good profits. 

Easter dinner was total chaos, but in a good way.  6 kids and 5 adults made for lots of fun.  We even went out after dinner to play tag in the sunshine.  Sadly my tom's shoes weren't that solid on a gravel road while I was running and if you can believe it, I ended up breaking the other bone in my left wrist.  Ugh!  After a day of frustration, I am good again - what can I do?  Other than perhaps live in a bubble, which clearly isn't me. 

Now preparations for Talyn's 6th birthday.  This year it's a Lego party, should be fun. 

So another couple of weeks that feels like months from all the things we've done, with some amazing highs and some frustrations....but nothing that I can control, so why let it get me down?  That's life and I will continue to roll with it.  You shoud too.

ciao,
Tasha

Thursday

relief

april 7, 2011

the day before april 4 was actually a lot harder than the day itself - why is that?  all these expectations and thinking about the big day was really overwhelming.  when the day actually came, the first thing i woke up to was a text from tricia letting me know that i did it.  4 am had already passed and that meant i had made it through the year.  i actually felt a huge sigh of relief.  if i made it through that, i am set!

there were lots of great moments, but the best part for me was going back to rosedale hospice.  i felt this immense sense of peace when i walked in and it was so nice that everyone remembered us.  we brought them some colorful tulip plants to brighten up the space and were greeted by many hugs.  talyn ran right down to the library and grabbed our familiar old retro game of "guess who" and we played a couple of rounds in the sun room.

talyn's bday is coming up and so we're again doing an echoage party (www.echoage.com).  i highly recommend it.  everyone just donates money, half goes to one gift for the birthday kid and the other half to a charity of their choice.  the kid gets to choose what they want and the guests don't have to shop and wrap a gift - heaven!

he was explaining to tricia tonight that he chose the WWF so that he could help animals.  then talyn was asking us each about the charities we do work for.  his idea was to start a charity where the money would go to help dying people so they wouldn't die so quickly.  kids speak from the heart don't they?

the biggest emotion i feel after this week is relief.  the first year was a big test for me.  everyone says you can do it and you sure hope you can, but deep down you are unsure.  everything in your world is new and you are alone.

we can't control everything the future holds for us but we can control how we move forwards.  you will be surprised at what you can get through!

ciao,
tasha

Sunday

deep breaths

April 3, 2011

As tomorrow’s last first – April 4th approaches for us, we are amazed how fast it has gone and breathing a sigh of relief that we made it through.  Lots of people have been asking me what we plan to do and nothing felt right.  When I asked Talyn what he thought, he was clear. 

Let’s have a party mommy!  We can put out all of daddy’s things and make a sign and people can come and remember daddy with us.  My heart actually broke when he said that he is worried people have forgotten about his daddy and this will help them remember.  His original idea also included inviting anyone who saw our sign, but that’s where we started negotiating.   So we will have a few people over and show Talyn that none of us will ever forget his daddy.

We will also be heading to Rosedale Hospice with flowers to brighten their day, thank them all for their wonderful support last year and be in the place where Ryan last was. 

If you knew Ryan at all or even heard something about him, take a minute tomorrow to remember the lessons he hoped to share.  Smile more, laugh often, and really live.  That is the message he hoped we would all learn from him.  

Much love to you all and eternal thanks for all of your support that has helped us get through the last year.

Tasha & Talyn